buffalexander

12:09 am: whats that thing made out of ....metal?
its been like 4 months...i thought they like kicked you out after so long...i guess not. ive been having weird dreams lately, i think some of them are post-prophetic (non-christian sense), like things that have already happened, but i didnt know they happened. weird. and they involved a broad spectrum of people, Sky D, Crystal, Kelly, Katie, Richard (who i think could have been a demon),Dad, that lady with the garbage can that turned into my truck, weird. and i believe they touched on about every aspect of life, sleeping, driving, loving, having force powers, but not the ability to fly, holding hands with demons named Richard, swimming. weird. i was told things in my dreams that happened in real life other peoples lives. thats what really freaked me out, but it happened, actually that happened once before, ask me about it if you want to know the story. well anyway that should do it for another couple months. Check out my band All Together Broken.

10:28 pm: close your eyes just settle...settle
wow, i havent updated this bad boy in a long time. might as well share my thoughts for a while. so i was listening to the fire CD the other day and the guys said that what is wrong with christians today is that they dont know about the pioneer christians of yesterday, like C.T. Studd and J. Wilber Chapman. so i looked them up along with other pioneer missionaries and believe you me my friend these guys were crazy, even to the christians they were crazy, C.T. Studd said "If Jesus Christ is God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be too great for me too make for Him." - rocks my socks off. and this guy backed it up too, while gone on a mission trip one of his relatives died and he inherited a crazy amount of money putting him as one of the richest guys in England. what does he do? he gives it all to charity and missions work. he went on mission trips to China, africa , and india, "Some wish to live within the sound of a church bell, I want to run a rescue shop within a yard of hell." the man died on the mission field, the last work he uddered was "hallelujah". wow. so thats all i have for tonight, if you want to read more about C.T. Studd check this out www.wholesomewords.org/missions/biostudd.html

11:51 pm: sing us a song, your the piano man
to those who left me comments on my last entry, i surely will pray for you, and i ask that you remember me in your prayers. and as to my faith, it is nothing that you cant have, all it takes is a willing heart and a prayer to be hungry for God, and after that God does the rest, but let me tell you, its a crazy ride after that. i want to encourage you to stay in the word of God, and protect your thought life as Craig said sunday, it has been only a week since i have been making a conscious effort to try to keep my thoughts in line with Christ, and even though there have been shortcomings, i can already feel a closeness with God that in the past has only been at camps and stuff like that. not much happened today so i thought i would just leave a word of encouragement.

11:56 pm: upside down
so tonight during youth, marvin made a statement that i have heard for the past 13 years of my life, not only has marvin used it m but gary jennings, craig hamlin, david ring, brian mcdevit, and many other evanglist, pastors and ministers have used it, i bet hat i hve heard it at least 1000 times, "you could turn alexander county upside down for jesus". for some reason tonight, though it was an offhand comment i started thinking about this, i started thinking about the feelings and the fire that we get at centrifuge, and other youth revivals, how good they feel, and how powerful i feel, like nothing can stop me, from turning alexander county upside down. but tonight i saw that in these past 13 years i havent done anything considerable at all, church attendence is about the same, youth attendence is about the same, people are still living double lives at chuch and at there jobs, heck im guilty of it, and im supposed to be the one doing something about it. people are still liveing a luke-warm life i feel that we need more God now than we ever have needed before, even with the "fill-ups" we get a these camps they arent enough to turn around our county. we will need a double triple portion, more than i have ever felt and i have no idea where it would come from, other than a complete lifestyle revamping of not one in our youth group but many, not one alone, but a band of many, not one solitary voice but a mass chior singing a new song, one like no one has heard before. this is now my prayer, my pleading, that we would see an uprising of youth, college age, adult, senior adults, anyone, who would stand and denounce all that this world stands for, to say that they would do anything to reach a lost soul for jesus, a selfless band of warriors that wont care how anyone looks at them because they know that they do not sruggle against flesh and blood but spirits and principalities.tonight i realized that satan is a strong adversary, and i am trying to fight naked, for everyday i do not put on my armor from God, pride gets in the way of my daily quiet times with God, thus i have not my sword, sandles or belt, with my shield of faith i can keep myself out of harms way, but it does not help the lost people in the county. Brian mcD, has said that one day someone is going to come along and believe whole heartedly every word in the bible and make us all look like fools, and i now believe that, their are things in the bible that i stuggle with, and that i dont follow, and im ashamed of it, but if we did, follow every word of the bible, the awesome power that we would hold, the power to hold off satan, to drive him out of our family and friends, to drive him out of the county. so..with all that said, i am standing to be one of those warriors, and denouncing the world, im embracing jesus, whether i live in a house or a box, work at a job, or on a mission field, in taylorsville or san deigo, or china, poor or rich, with many or by myself, accountable to all that read this. drop me a line if you would like for me to pray for you, because i would sure like for you to me for me.

10:47 pm: and in a wide sea of eyes i see one pair that i recognize and i know ...i am the luckiest
im in a love sick mood, and its not really over a person or at least i dont think that it is, if it is i dont know who, but anyway, does that make sense? i feel the pains of breaking up, or of having a big fight over the phone while a long distance away, or of sitting beside that person but knowing you cant talk to them. something of that nature. i hope it goes away soon, it is making me mopey and sad. or if i just knew where it was coming from i could remedy it, maybe tomorrow will be better.

12:31 am: the glory of the Lord
Oh, the Lord has been so real today, and for that all i can do is praise him, I really need to say something, but I have no idea how to say it? and I feel as though all my efforts of trying, amounts to little or nothing. today was one of those days, wrapped up in the love and awesomeness of Jesus my Lord and Comfortor, i open my mouth to thank Him for his presence and guidence, and i find i have no words that come close to describing how i feel. Oh, if only everyday could be like this day, but alas i know that sometime i will fail and pursue my own selfish ambitions, forsaking His inerrent will, for my feeble attempts at worldly gain or temporary pleasure. and i curse those sinful days, wishing they would never come, so that i may eternally be in those arms of love. i wonder, if in heaven i will finally find those words that i need to say, those words that seem always in my heart but never on my lips? we shall see.

"O Lord, You have searched me and You know me. You know when i sit and when i rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord." Psalms 139:1-4

01:22 am: the chocolate sweet sixteen doughnuts are so much better than the powdered sugar ones
i woke up at 12 today, to the smell of Jenny baking muffins, yes that is right, me and jenny had breakfast at 12:00, we then proceeded to loaf around the house to the respectable hour of 4, i then charged Jenny with a holy mission, i quest if you will, to seek and find lunch within the confines of Taylorville, she amazed me with her impecable taste when, low and behold, she had discovered the path to Davo's chicken. 5 strips and 9 wedges later i found myself in a state of utter contentment. i also found myself 5 minutes late for church. i love the youth group, i couldnt tell you exactly what it is, but i love it. and i love marvin too, i dont think my life would be the same without him, and i am finally at chaperone status. tomorrow is going to rock my face off, we are going to practice at 12, a little FIF, then hangout with andy, then at 9 we play the best game ever invented by man, Capture The Flag(CTF). of all the things ive ever been a part of, i am most happy about CTF. not only a game of endurance, speed, and strength, it is also a game of strategy. and strategy is my game. and it is a game i never lose, most of the time. alas, it is time for bed. outie 5000

10:35 pm: so yesterday
today was boring, all i did was wash the house and work, so im not going to say anything about today. yesterday was good though, i woke up at like 12:15pm them stew came over about 2 and we jammed to some FIF, then andy showed up and picked up the old trombone and played with us, and we actually sounded pretty good,may just have to start something. afterward me and Sky went to El Tapatios and watched anchorman which was a great movie i dont think i have laughed that hard at a movie ever, like i was in the floor rolling, i thought my neck was going to explode. "IM IN A GLASS CASE OF EMOTION!!!" went back to skys house relaxed played some halo, smoked some wilshire, came home and when to bed. good day....yesterday.

12:44 am: behold the power of the chia pet!
hokay...so...tonight i sat in the park, in the dark, with Michael, Stew, and Katie, without a frizbee, which i admit i forgot, and still had a great time, good company produces a good time no matter the situation. i believe we talked about just about everything, even what the word "kosher" means. actually me, michael, and stew, talked about everything and katie just listened to us. i stayed up and watched hilary duff on the david letterman show tonight, so im feeling pretty good right now. preliminary to the park excursion, we ate at scotty's, and fellowship insued, which was fun, Stew was cracking some great snide remarks about Leslie. jamming tomorrow. and maybe anchorman. outie 5000

02:08 am: are you sweepy?...no...its time to wake up....no...
look i now have a journal, ill get going with something better later, right now is sweepy time.